I've been trying to get down to the heart of the matter, but my will gets weak and my thought seem to scatter.... but I think it’s about forgiveness...

...maybe for my self. Because I know sometimes I loose control. I feel like my mind is constantly in motion, and not just on a straight path.... it’s on 3 or 4 intersecting, sometimes more, or less. Pot slows it down, helps me reduce the amount of thoughts. I push people away, I’m not perfect; I’m a perfectionist. Its like I get mad at myself for not being perfect, when I act stupid or get upset when I shouldn’t .. Its the people pleaser in me. I think I’m mad at me, for you (which is all fucked)... I’m just getting angry at myself and its coming out at you.

“When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.”
-Helen Keller

People need to let go of their hostility, we are all here... and sometimes life sucks.... deal. If you don’t approach things positively your going to be unhappy for a long time!

Something about myself…
To describe myself is a difficult task; a person is complex by nature.
A basic structure to follow…
Do on to others as you would have them do on to you; keeping in mind, we are only human.
Life is nothing but a sum of your experiences.
Think through tough choices.
Trust your instincts, they have your best interest in mind.

“Things may come to those who wait, but only the things left by those who hustle!"

The mind is like a maze, you have two remain focused. Choose the right paths for you, to be happy in your own state of mind in order to set your thoughts free. Otherwise you continue to face walls that lead down a dead end. Find your way out... in the end, there is only you. Make you happy, make you feel better. Trust in yourself, follow your head but listen to your heart in a world where so much around, can bring us down... You have no other choice but to lift yourself up. No one can make you feel better than you. Everything you need, is in you. I know for a fact, because I know you, I am you writing to me.

Proballein
Problems provide an opportunity for us to gain new skills, If we respond to problems by loving them instead of resisting them, we can expand the boundaries in which we live our lives. When approached with acceptance, and even love, problems can “throw” us forward.

I live out my imagination instead of my memory. I tie myself to my limitless potential and hold on instead of limiting my life. I have become my own creator.